XMAS!

yeah its xmas! one of the bestest and most festive season of the yr which i enjoyed best! its a time of giving and sharing and to me, not asking anything in return. i had a great time celebrating this yr i must say.

i started as usual go to mgg's hse. this yr he says he dun wan any pressie coz i alwiz nag say i buy him pressie but he nv buy me any. true lah i alwiz complain abt that, but when i buy him things, i nv ask for anything in return actuali. and of coz, its a time of giving and sharing so i got him a bluetooth eyepiece which he had been complaining since he changed new hp in sept. he kept complaining why nokia nv add this inside the package since his phone is blue tooth enabled... well mgg... good things dun come free dear... he expected perfume but i know he is very happy wif his new gadget and immediately went to charge it and kept asking me this and that. but mgg... i onli know how to buy but duno how to use leh... coz my phone is not blue tooth phone. can see his smile when he receive his pressie. thats what i like most abt mgg. he smiles like a little boi wif his dimples.

later, we headed to tokkie's hse for dinner. its quite a spread i must say. got turkey, sushi, roasted beef (damned good shit), trotters, fondue etc etc. had a great time and met up wif some laoz whom i haven seen for the longest time like my BESTEST FREN! hahaha he still look the same. glad he din come home wif some longgy hair like the other time which we all force him to cut b4 he come meet us last yr. took many pics and heres juz some of them!

Fig 1: Almost completed pic of laoz

Fig 2: me and l4 with our Yu Nu pose (but kana spoilt by rosie)

Fig 3: me and l4 went to spoil back rosie's and ld's yu nu pose

Fig 4: the pretty gers from Laoz

Fig 5: Laoz love pressies!

Fig 6: I love pressies! thanx everyone for ur pressies!

We had lotsa fun and stayed till almost 5am b4 we left. me and rosie continued for another round of supper wif mgg and frens who juz came back from chonging. ate abit...

Xmas day is the same, xmas lunch at home. we got almost the same food as last yr. pizza, sushi and of coz my mama's fav durian logcake. baby isaac can eat now! but too bad he diahorea so he onli had grapes. too tired to take pics liao... at nite, i went over to meet rosie and my badminton kakis at orchard. took so bibi pics. u guys can refer to rosie's blog for more details.

as you guys can see i have been eating that explain the plight im now today. had stomache and fever on 26th. doc says i kana indigestion. today kana diahorea... what is happening to me... but nothing can stop me from going to isetan private sale (even if i duno what to buy)!

i'm back!

yeah! i'm back. well doubt anyone is actuali looking forward to me coming back besides mgg? will try to post some pics when im back to the ofc coz MY COM CRASHED! damned fucking sianz... den i got this eye infection prob since last day at turkey till now. so been spending my mc days at home to fix this bloody com. anyway, im a complete idiot when it comes to technical thingy... so i shall be patient and wait for my bestest fren to be back. my bobo com seems to realli know when to throw tantrum sia! u noe bestest fren coming back thats why down rite? angry!

anyway turkey was not bad despite some minor hiccups here and there. the day of depature was the worse. i was like doing damned last minute packing den i actuali forgotten to bring this sum of $ to be given to the land operator there! damn... luckily my bro was in the airport wif me, so he rushed home to get it back for me. thanx bro! think i was realli adding too much stress to myself... i have this damned feeling that they ask me go turkey coz fern's leaving, they scare i will go too so let me go tour lead... sigh... maybe mgg is rite. i alwiz like to work in bobo companys. the previous one suxx now this one isnt anymuch better coz I HAVEN GOT MY NOV PAY YET! and best of all, this time round, they din even bother to post any memos. hey hey hey! cannot take us for granted manz! actuali im glad fern and eugene are leaving coz its realli not advisable to stay on... told ah boy if he can, move on too... me? i haven given much tot for myself. maybe thats juz me bah... im juz too comfy in the comfort zone liao... lazy to move on, procrascinating.

looking forward to this sat's laoz gathering cum xmas party. i know mgg isnt keen on going which i understand oso.. seriously, i oso dun wana force him to do smthing he dun like to do... i juz like him to be happy. but i hope this can be like a laoz family gathering... coz l4 bringing bf oso den laoz is completed!! finali laoz is completed and can take a quan jia fu! lets see what he says bah...

I'll be leaving you...

sigh... i duno whether to be happy or sad. maybe more of mixed feelings bah. i will be going to turkey to tour lead tonite and be back 10 days later. maybe to many ppl, its a great opportunity for free travelling... well i was like you guys oso. but things r not as simple as we tot it is. many admin work to be done, preparation etc on top of my normal workload, which i believe i haven been doing much lately... no good no good... coz fern isnt ard oso. some colleagues envy me coz i get to earn some fast cash like tour leading allowance and also optional commission and not forgetting the tops i be collecting... but seriously i rather dun earn them now.. later still gota check the air tickets...

now packing my stuffs... very tired and sianz... no time for many things...

Issit an offence?

Hehe wonder what u guys feel abt the other me? may have scared wits out of some of you this is how CHERRIENE looks like! well...i once heard b4 that in the whole world, there will be 7 or 9 persons that will look exactly like each other. wonder who are the unlucky ones who shared the same appearance as me. bet mgg would find them damned suayz!

anyway, i was looking thru some of the blogs. i realised ppl tend to avoid to spell the word *F*U*C*K correctly, eg fark, fug etc. issit an offence nowadays if u say vulgarities in ur blog ah? damn manz! i think i duno spell how many fucks in my previous posts... nowadays very scary, cannot anyhow say things in blog. wheres the freedom of speech thingy? why cant we juz say whatever we want? say say oso wun hurt ppl? maybe of coz u dun be like some bobos say some things to discriminate other race and still open forums for discussion... think thats very wrong... but one bobo oso poor thing... he hated that race coz his sis passed away coz that race ppl refuse to let them go in the cab 1st... luckily i'm juz a countryist not racist hahaha btw any laws for discriminate ppl of another country but same race?

Figure 1: Cherriene demostrating for Freedom of Speech

yah BTW, i managed to pass my driving license! its not some hot news but think still worth to mention here. Fern juz tendered... die liao marcom left me to do the shit... when will it be my turn to leave this place? when will my pay come ah? alot thingys in mind to buy liao... sigh festive season... damn damn damn<-- can say damn anot ah?

I'M BACK!

juz come to realise that its been 1 mth since i last log in! hehehe well me is back from taiwan! will try to upload the pics (if i could).

wanted to beautiful my blog and think shld start to have some time soon coz gota be over and done wif mgg's projs. realli horrible to piah projs, work and learn driving at the same time. but from this, i started to realise that time is realli made by man. as long as u have the heart, u can make time for everything. of coz, at the expense of sacrificing your sleep. driving this sat. hope can pass coz been spending $ on it till i broke! yah toking abt spending $... chipped my tooth in taiwan. went to get it fixed and it cost me $126! damn!! burn a damn big hole manz! it better stay or else wah lauz!

nothing much to do at work these few days hahaha been doing mgg's proj and research in ofc... better dun get caught!

interesting email

Lesson
A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold, the bird froze and fell to the ground in a large field. While it was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on it. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, it began to realize how warm it was. The dung was actually thawing him out! He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy. A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him!

The morals of this story are:
1) Not everyone who drops shit on you is your enemy.
2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.
3) And when you're in deep shit, keep your mouth shut

shall keep my mouth shut den or my enemies will noe im in shit!

overloaded... overburdened...overrun...overkill? over and over (song by "oh my god")

one thing b4 i forget! i promise i will update the outlook of my blog when i come back from taiwan! i shall add rosie inside my list, do a tag board, change the boring colors... rosie must teach me k!

yah i know maybe u may think im juz plain lazy... its tt me realli been so busy. and i onli got to find out last nite that i had been busy doing things for others and none for myself. facing many problems...

1. family problem
my mama is going for a holiday soon wif my auntie. bet i gota miss her alot. been trying to be nice daughter lately coz i haven been home chatting wif them due to my fairs. gave her $ and bought her thermal wear coz heard its cold there. worse of all... i gota do hsework. i felt that i gota oversees my family. yah u may find it horrible but... I DUNO HOW TO USE A WASHING MACHINE! the old one is easy but this new one (not realli that new think been ard for at least 4 yrs) i nv use b4. can imagine what a horrible ger i am rite? not onli stress wif that... my father is sick. one thing abt my father is that he gets very paranoid when he gets sick. machiam end of the world for him one and he will seek everyones attention. imagine what life gota be when u r sick and ur wife going for a holiday and ur dearesr daughter going soon? bet he is going to give hell for my brother who is going to face him most of the time. juz spoke to my bro, he says he will help in the chores... sweep and mop 2 times while mama away for 1week.

2. work problem
my dear GM mag seems to think that she saw me wearing my undies outside. IM NO SUPERMAN! she made fern to go tour lead to japan (envy!!! when will it be my turn?), ask me to go do see-off. when fern isnt ard, mind you we got 2 fairs coming up 28 and 29th at HDB and 2nd - 6th at jurong pt! i gota be a 查fit人! die manz.... imagine i gota oversee the event set up for both events, do all the collaterals, managed the free gifts... seriously i duno how am i going to survive on top of doing the hsework i gota do! also, i gota work with BETTY! damn manz... seriously speaking i feel im quite an easy going person but... betty is one hell whom i seriously duno how to manage or handle her! to be frank... i feel she is throwing her weights ard juz bcoz she thinks she has alot of working experience and been working very long in the company. today juz tell me she feel like beating me up (hope its jokingly). looking at the org chart, she is actuali my subordinate leh... argh!

3. r/s problem
not realli much to do wif me and mgg... but mgg got 3 projs at hand which 2 of them i gota complete b4 i go taiwan (b4 i go taiwan my mama is awaym fern is away, i gota do hsework and manage my dept). to be frank i dun mind doing projs coz one of them seems pretty interesting. yah i enjoy doing projs actuali. but... why everything juz come to be suddenly... so overwhelming...

4. personal problem
i going to taiwan... and i got no time to pack how ah? oso... my pay duno will come anot... spend my $ on my driving... hope pay can come den i will have more $ to spend or else gota use credit card liao... sianz sianz sianz!

well... the above shows smthing... one has many obligations in life. the older u grow, the more obligations u get. others problems will seem more impt den urs and urs will alwiz come last... u work very hard but for others... when will we ever have time for ourselves? maybe when we finali take our rest and close our eyes 4ever?

I WANA BE A BACKPAKCER!

yah been along time since i blog... think coz been busy. ppl got fairs i oso got fairs, ppl no fair i oso got fair... sigh... why ah why ah? i starting to experience what gen and jules complained abt last time, non-stop fairs. during my 1st fair, it was like a novelty, i sort of enjoyed it. but as i go more fairs... i am like sianz sianz sian. thank god my spin and win wheel spoil! or else i still gota tend to it and get sponsorship for gifts to spin.

one thing abt sponsorship. we worked wif some banks asnd give freebies for passenegers who use their cards to pay. one is SCB. they give realli good backpack. we had some for display. who noes the best one tolley bag kana stolen. and this miss miao colleague of mine actuali say marcom shld be responsible! angry! hey we get freebies u nv give us credit. kana stolen say we shld be responsible! not as if we paid $ for it... if its so, marcom shall not get any freebies den in case get stolen and we gota bear responsibility! sigh... starting to see who r the baddies in the company.

looking forward to my taiwan trip. i insisted on backpacking and dun wana be a luggage ger. mgg and my bro keep asking me bring luggage... i know i may not be strong but at least let me try rite? hehehe

有的人说不清哪里好 但就是谁都替代不了

read sorina's blog... saw the ger's prob abt she and ah seng. like any serial shows... the feeling is like the leading actress juz cried upon hearing the leading actor wana patch back and thats the end of the season. maybe i do understand sorina's dilemma in smways bah...

i feel its not whether she loves ah seng more or vice versa. i felt that its the feeling that she cant see much of a future wif him. the future seems to depict that she wun be leading the kinda lifestyle she has been looking forward to. this is what i feel ger. reality and ideals often are making a fool of us. there are ppl who chose love above all. if its me, maybe i will do that too. maybe coz i have been thru a shirt period of losing the person u love so much yet its ur own doing that made he leave. theres this phrase in fish leong's song which i feel very much relate to how i feel: 如果我的坚强任性 会不小心伤害了你 你能不能温柔提醒 我虽然心太急 更害怕错过你. think the reason why mgg left me is coz im too 任性bah... and that i often take him for granted. now that we are back again, i feel we can handle our r/s better. we have learned to give and take. i dun get angry over small trival matters and i can see mgg's efforts in making me feel more loved and appreciated.

there's this person i must thank. thats wenyong. saw him yest after so many mths not seeing him coz he went aussie to study. slim down alot... he told its stress... i wana thank him for his support and advice during that painful 3weeks. if not for him, i think i wouldnt be able to keep the faith that mgg will come back to me. i can oso see that he is very happy to see me wif mgg yest. if i dun feel i owe him, i wouldnt have drunk that fatal drink from him! anyway... thanx pal. though i know you wun be able to read my blog but i know u know how i feel. hope ya study hard and reach ur goal soon k!

sigh maybe u may think i'm lazy or maybe i juz wana be a dormant volcanoe... not that i dun wana update but i simply had no time! my bro was actuali telling me that i got 200+ unread emails! mind you, these 200+ does not include those what enhance ur sex life, shag ur grannie, let ur gf noe how big u can be etc kinda spams... sigh realli no time!

but anyway NATAS over! i finali got sm time! hehehe in fact, i have been acting busy at work lately! nothing to do leh duno why. so i everyday surf flowerpod on taiwan and the face shop. juz do up my shopping list for eugene to go korea and buy all the face shop things back for me!

come to think of it now... realli nothing much to update leh... been juz eating and eating lor... 1 week 2 times steamboat! hehehe yummy!! lotsa mushrooms! mooncakes! die... gota be fat wait mgg dun wan me how ah? hehehe

the ger who has been kissed by the sun and embraced by the wind

please dun blame me for not updating my blog. think my com kana some stupid bobo thingy which whenever i type long and post images, they simple dun wana publish my blog!

anyway as many would noe by now, i failed my driving! yeah!! hahaha i m still pretty overwhelmed by the fact that i failed. simply becoz i can rest from driving at least for 1 mth! of coz, i shant be taking much of a rest oso coz NATAS coming up soon! i must admit i feel pretty restless abt it. sigh... coz i tot company got $ liao but i still hven gotten my august pay! counter staffs got it liao but not backend. so sianz! den they oso dun wana confirm me. i think they r not keen at all. i told myself liao, if they dun wana cfm, its fine i can go find another job! tml will go check wif jo again.

mama says if they dun wana cfm can oso stay on... but if no cfm, i cannot take leave, i must go polyclinic see doc! so sianz rite? like now... falling sick liao (embraced by the wind). think caught a cold liao. and mo ming qi miao kana sun burnt (kissed by the sun)! i nv even do any outdoor activities lor! juz forgot to put sunblock. the whole face peeling... but good oso lah. my face dry now so lesser pimples popping out oso.

yah, the 7th mth juz over. glad its over. not that i do anot of kui xing shi... but i duno whether true anot but i seen the wrong thing. i was wif mgg going back to his hse one nite think ard 7+pm. i ming ming saw this auntie and her son going into the lift leh... but when we press open, the lift inside empty. i was telling mgg in the lift what i saw. think i gave him goosepimples and i actuali teased that its the 7th mth! hahaha i think i not tt suayz bah... maybe i saw wrongly? hehehe

祝你幸福

my 2 legs aching now. all thanx to the stupid firedrill on fri. imagine my ofc 37 floors! gota walk down! frankly i tot walking down stairs shld be quite an easy chore as compared to my walking up 11 floors exercise i use to do. I WAS DAMNED WRONG! i tot i was smart to borrow eliz slippers coz she was on half day. i think i realli 佩服 those gers who wore heels! its sooooo damned long manz. think if realli got fire, i would be dead wif the speed i was going. of coz, i wasnt the lousiest to come down. can see many of my fellow colleagues slowing down half way or sweating by the time we got down. but maybe i suffered the most aftereffect! my legs aching yest. today when i woke up... its even worse! WTF! later still gota go bt timah hill. wonder if i can make it anot?!?!?

anyway we went to "celebrate" my bdae wif the laoz on fri nite. will update more pics soon coz the celebration haven ended. hahaha machiam national day must celebrate 1 whole mth of august! fri mgg came oso. frankly, i was very surprised that he came. coz he wasnt driving but riding. theres not much of a pt for him to come. i bet the leftovers din relli attracted him either. maybe he juz wana be nice to me bah. laoz were very encouraging. i tot it would be very
尴尬 coz of what happened earlier. but think everythings fine. we all had fun that nite :)

after that, i went home by cab and msg ld to tell the rest sorry i cant stay on later coz i gota work the next day. she msg me back 祝你幸福. l4 msg that to me oso. maybe coz of the kinda state i was in earlier on bah. like half dead. thanx alot for the concern u guys have given. not onli laoz.... xl will ask me whether im wif mgg whenever she calls me. ah boi will ask wheres mgg now and whether im happy now. thanx pals! thanx alot for being there for me when i was down. i think im 幸福 coz i got u guys ard me! opps forgot to thank bestest fren!

thats all folks, will be updating on my bdae celebration!

It's National Day!

b4 i start, i shall apologise to our dear sorina wan. hehehe ok lah we r on par lah. i know i complain alot oso and when i complain all fucking words come out. u more civilised hahaha :P

Yeah its National Day! a day of a certain significance to me. coz im supposed to be a national day baby... anyway its supposed! many updates over the wkend...

sat and sun (6 + 7) i had my travel fair. its quite a fun experience for me. maybe coz this is my 1st fair so everything seems to be interesting for me despite the fact that i had many OT and late nights coz of that. din realli get to rest well for the past week. maybe coz its like a very light hearted working environment, no need face com, everyone dressed casually. ah boi is there to entertain me oso. i had fun but the tot that a few more coming up i feel sianz. during the fair, i cant stand the look of mr lin. i duno whether to be happy or what. coz the sales is good for the fair. we managed to hit target for 2 days on the 1st day liao. however... most of the sales r from europe and korea! bloody hell... why sporeans getting richer nowadays issit? all go europe! expensive oso go... make mr lin sooooo yaya that those countries under him all got good sales... of coz i must say lah... he deserve it coz i can realli see him putting lotsa efforts in order to achieve such good sales.

during travel fair oso saw many ugly sporeans... sorry to say that on national day. give them freebies still complain this complain that wana change this wana change tt. angry one manz. esp this stupid couple. told them they not entitled to the dvd player liao. the guy say forget abt it in those sacarstic manner. den the gf or wife, whatever, gimme that kinda fucking haolian face that she wana speak to mgr. sigh u onli 2 person go europe leh! if u 10 person so maybe i will consider. anyway they got their way. mag agreed. must be they put up a scene bah. can still rem their stupid haolian face!

ok enuff of the fair... yest and today i attended mgg's uncle funeral. quite an eye opener for me i must say. since young, my mama had restricted me from attending bai shi. duno why oso but she seems particularly concern when i got attend such thingy. 1st time visit the mandai crematory. very interesting place. coz last time maybe watch too much tv liao. whats on tv is very diff from now. that place looks like shopping mall or court. i see those ppl cry i feel sad for them oso. life is simply so short and unpredictable... whats coming up next?

illusion and obession

i never realli seem to complain much abt work besides my designer alwiz repeating the songs he got... like heal the world... im not sorina u see... alwiz complaining abt brian. but well well smone in my ofc finali step onto my toe. yeah he is a manager as well... bloody hell juz got promoted to senior manager! he is mr lin xian sheng!

he is such an ass manz. everyone must make me angry or suan me 'nai ma' den he happy. im not being protective of my designer k, i juz wana make sure everything flows well n not onli ur europe, japan and korea. there are so many other countries in the world den urs k mr lin! everytime waste sooooo much time making my designer doing your work. den others i gota push deadlines. den next day come yaya ask me whether ur things sent out for print! u onli concern abt ur own stuffs! asshole!!!! today still come say i kia si! of coz i kia si lah! if my flyer nv come out, i kana not u kana lor! make me so fed up when u said that that i gota hold back my tears go toilet hide and sobz! asshole fucker! i tell myself oredi i shall not tok to you unneccessarily! anyway my designer is oso one of a kind. everything oso listen to you. wonder what kinda gong tou u put onto him! tell him soooo many times do in freehand he juz like deaf suddenly! maybe he got selective listening like me? hehehe. i have an evil tot today. maybe i got too angry liao hehehe coz designer and fern din go home yest juz to finish the flyer. was wondering what will happen to mr lin's doggies if he was to stay back overnite oso... anyway that ass he will nv stay overnite one. ask him work 1 hrs OT like wan his life liao.

think the onli motivation for me now is to see my illusion. tml can see him oso. hehehe must discreetly manz. i alwiz feel seeing him is like seeing mgg. if he is my illusion, maybe mgg is my obession? what do think ah? hehehe

busy week!

well well, i oredi expected this week to be hell week liao. travel fair this wkend and my flyer is not out yet! i've been trying to start working on it since last week and its still heading nowhere! now still in ofc to clear it up. hopefully can kick start smthing at least today or else u going to go to a travel fair with no flyers! hahaha maybe u guys can try this wkend go suntec see whether got ppl distributing my flyer anot? maybe realli dun have! now still in the ofc waiting for my designer so took to time to update my blog abit hehehe

anyway heard a few complaints on my blog liao... maybe gota change my blog address soon... and i remove the song as well... thanx for the feedbacks guys! hahaha

anyway coz i oredi noe my wkends are burnt so i make sure that i go out and chong during the wkend. had quite a good time. more like old frens gathering. met up wif ppl whom i think sm i nv even see for years... hehe yeah i dun care what u gota say sorina but i think ah pang is still damn cute and good looking! cant imagine i still rem yongming oso! hahaha i think i onli seen him once in real life and many times in pics. he realli changed alot, much more huggable now. anyway he is sorina's new plaything as i can see. cheated him and din feel the least guilty abt it! still blame him for it...

juz appointed bestest fren as my support controller. if u reading this now bestest fren, i admit hehehe i m still indulging in my own illusions. still ge siaoing to find opportunities but i think he realised it liao. so today i nv do anything. in case he find out and i will cause him to be in a dilemma? hahaha machiam he will bother abt me. think i have a soft spot for soft spoken ppl hehehe but not you lor bestest fren :p

Peng Kui Mode!

Argh! I know its still office hours but I m not eating snake k! juz wana put things down in words b4 i forget...

Been busy with stressing and worrying! damned scared that the flyers, brochures etc cannot meet deadline... maybe someone will need to shower sense of urgency powder on my designer bah... he seems pretty non chalent on the tight deadline and schedule we r facing... this is realli call huang di bu ji, tai jian ji bah... he still got duno how many ads going out costing duno many thousands. anyway hope things will turn out well.

anyway, today smthing nice and sweet happened to me (after a long period of sianz mode, finali smthing that make my heart feel warm). the tea auntie actuali helped me to get water when i juz got to ofc! i duno whether she got it b4 i reach ofc anot... i was toking to fern den i feel my water bottle, its warm! auntie rems i onli drink warm water... so sweet rite????? feel so bad manz... coz im not those dai sai ppl no need ppl to get drinks for me one. maybe auntie see me sitting in front of those fish tanks she tot i big shot? NONONO... anyway i appreciate it alot auntie but realli no need to do it liao... makes me soooo damn guilty!

ok gota go off liao! back to work!

Good Old Song

Like this song since my sec sch days. Find the lyrics very meaningful. hope one day i will learn how to broadcast this song over here... Sorina dun laff at me duno how to do links k! I will learn soon! hehehe soon....

Tommy Page -Time
I remember the day you say goodbye
Something was calling you
I could read it in your eyes
You told me that someday you'd meet again
But deep inside I always knew
This was the end
I remember those words you claimed
As I stood in the pouring rain
When I showed my heart would never be the same

You told me time will always heal the pain
Bring the sun and dry the rain
You need to solve and think our problems through
You told me time is always on my side
To turn the season,change the tide
Things work out with time if you want them to
Why can't time make me stop
Loving you

It wasn't very easy when you left
Every mention of your name
Would get me so upset
I trapped my emotions deep inside
And I don't like,I didn't care
With hope this would sub-side
I remember those words you claimed
As I stood in the pouring rain
When I showed my heart would never be the same

I try to get you off my mind
I live my life just wasting time
Hoping that someday I can say the same

things happen for a reason

Things happen for a reason... think so bah... maybe alot of things r fated bah... im not those who believe life in our hands. maybe i dun have to courage to persue the kinda life i wan bah...

Be With You

Juz got back from Bt Timah hill. went there despite the rain. walked with umbrella. abit feeling like the movie i have juz watched, Be With You, aka Using the Rain to say I Love You. I watched this movie wif mixed feelings. coz the nite that me and mgg quarelled, i actuali wanted jio laoz go watch this movie. maybe if i have went ahead wif the movie, we wouldnt have quarelled bah... nonetheless, i nv regret watching the movie coz its realli smthing sweet. like love letter, love may have blossomed long ago w/o u knowing it. but i still prefer love letter. coz i felt heartache after watching it. imagine that ur hubby married u juz becoz u look like a ger he adores back in his high sch days. and u onli realised that after he is dead... imagine the guy u detest had been writing ur name on the library card. u tot he is juz writing his name and vandalising the card... actuali he is writing the name of a ger he likes. Love is juz a strange thingy bah... even though u noe u r going to die ultimately, u still choose to be with the person u love.


anyway, got a durian free from auntie. hehehe felt very much indebted to her. maybe u guys wun understand bah... but the bond between me and auntie may be much more complicated and deeper den i ever noe. i will nv forget the day we hugged and cried out our pains together. its onli till den, den i realised who is the one who got hurt the most. we alwiz blame our parents for jumping into conclusions based on their own judgements and nv put themselves in our shoes... but have we ever put ourselves in theirs? bet alot of us r guilty of them. maybe coz we r not parents ourselves bah... parenthood is lifelong learning. u gota learn how to cope wif ur child as they grow older and proceed to diff stages of life... and its very pain when u r helpless... not knowing what u can do to help ur child and cope wif ur own pain...

hope tml wun rain, so that she can pass her driving :) rem to drink authentic tou hway zui ah!

Anatawa Ogenki desuka? Watashiwa genki desu!

my feelings now

你 在那里 这些年来如意不如意
还快乐 还单纯 还美丽 时光如何对你
我 在这里 人海中一座岛屿
很平静 风平浪静 只除了深夜里 回忆会疯狂来袭

我很想你 你知道吗 如果可以 就让我再见你
美好微笑 清澈眼睛
好确定那场分离只毁了我一个而已
我很想你 听见了吗 woo...
这是唯一 我无解的困境
那些过去 不肯过去
不管我后来遇见多少人
只能叹息 都不是你

我 在那里 你会不会偶尔好奇
有没有 曾经怀疑 我说我会忘记 只是种好意

都不是你 我只想爱你

finali got to do my mani and pedi

hahahaha finali got to do my manicure cum pedicure that i have been eyeing for so long! been waiting for my pay and it came finali... after 20 days of long wait...

actuali 20 days i duno whether its long or short... long to wait for $, short period for the break up, but seems ages coz i miss him so badly...

hope we both will jia you in our lives... i dun wana give up yet...

my 1st blog

yeah baby! this is my 1st blog ever... not realli so coz i do write abit as and when in my space.

anyway would like to intro my current good fren to you guys. my elmo! think he had been my faithful good old fren for the past 1 week. not forgetting the ever-so-loyal tissue box and dustbin. cannot imagine how many trees i killed coz of the tissues i have been using.
anyway... they say pay day in another next 2 days. fucking ass... they delay and delay... even if they gimme $100 as compensation i oso wun xi han anymore manz!

anyway tired after driving... actuali i onli drove for 1 hr coz i wana come back for my desperate hsewife... what a crappy ending. but anyway i know its for season 2. hoping it will come back soon. xl ask me to start watching sex and the city to give myself more faith on love and r/s. another fren ask me to watch eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. maybe will go catch them soon bah... i alwiz think i got no time. wait till i finish the dan brown book? hahaha lets see den!