If there are seasons

Caught this musical by Raymond To on Sat. went in the name of the pioneer of 新谣, Liang Wen Fu. Since young, I had been exposed to his music under the influence of my sister， 耳濡目染. Then, I do not understand much of his lyrics, but I like the tune a lot. It was indeed very nostalgic to listen them all again. In fact, I was so 感动and I can really feel 鸡皮疙瘩.

Ok, back to the musical. The storyline is very simple. Ah Le felt lost in his life since his gf xiaojing passed away. He had decided to leave the place he is most familiar with to somewhere else, to pursue his music career. He had decided to go somewhere that has seasons. He chose New York. Upon his arrival, he met with Ah Qiang, Rose and other Singaporeans. Love blossom between Ah Le and Rose. However, Rose had chose to pursue her dreams in step into broadway. Soon, he felt New York is not a place for him, and so he returned to Singapore.

Simple storyline, coupled with Liang's songs. Aptly matched with the story. However, I feel the underlying morale of the story is: I Love Singapore! Hahaha suddenly from a romantic storyline changed to a patriotic one. What it want to convey is that there can be many opportunities overseas, but it may not be suitable for you. Pursue whatever you want. Whenever you are tired, turn around, your home town is always by your side. Just like the tagline: 这里只有天气， 没有季节， 但这里有爱、有情... Also, if u had been following Liang's song, he had penned many songs that reflected the then plight of Singaporeans. Very localized and definitely reflected the 心声of many singaporeans. You will be surprised how these songs are still timely now despite the fact they are 'oldies'.

Verdict: a must watch musical for the year, especially for those born in the 70s and early 80s, proficient in Chinese.

many things...

Finally, I have found out the reason why Judy had been so good to me lately. 2 possibilities, can be either one or both.

· She is guilty (70%)
· Director likes me, she bo bian cannot be too bad to me (25%)

The remaining 5% is for the unknown reason, say it is really not the above 2 mentioned reasons but just that she is basically a nice person or she dreamt of me haunting her in her dreams (7th mth coming tml)? Anyway, when foong broke the news to me, I wasn’t really that disappointed. I only felt sad and the more I thought, the angrier I am. She has denied someone of an opportunity at no cost to her. She should know that once this chance is gone, it will be harder for me next time. Yet, she stick to her decision though my director tried to convince her. Maybe she is right about her decision bah. I must really thank my director. She had really been very nice to me though I have never ‘sa kah’ her before.

Was discussing with a friend (you know who you are) on the guilt one may have if one was to leave the company on Friday… duno whether your colleagues can handle the job or the feeling that you did something wrong to your managers. However, I came upon an article on Cleo that wrote something like this: you dun need to consider so much or feel guilt if you were to leave your company. Your company will hold no regards to your contributions or hardwork when they want to retrench you during bad times. So you-know-who-you-are, no need to feel guilt ok! Hope you will find the courage to pursue whatever you want. We have been living our lives for others, it is time we live for ourselves! Let them know that we are independent enough to be answerable for our acts!

Another, finally, I got rid of my ugly curl permed hair! So happy! Hahaha been such a long time to see myself in short and dark coloured hair! I think the last time I had dark hair was when I worked in Starhub I dyed black and I rem very clearly that I met juan for dinner at marine parade and she commented I look like wearing a wig! Eversince then, I never had dark coloured hair. But dun worry, I dyed dark mahogany, so I dun think it look like a wig. Duno whether it looks good anot, coz that’s not my concern hahaha. In fact, I was telling mgg that I din feel anything when they cut away my hair like most girls will… mgg say I am not a ger anyway which I do agree. Will blog about my ‘un-girly’ acts next time.

Another achievement (besides getting rid of my ugly locks) is I managed to pass my driving under instructor James Ng! so happy! Think the problem with me is that I dun have enough confidence in my driving. Was so scared when instructor din make a single comment thru-out the whole journey when I drove myself home yest. He kept quiet all the way. When I finally reached home, he looked at me with the usual stern look and ask me what I feel and what I feel I did badly. Instructor Ng says I am too slow in moving off but he agreed that I was much faster compared to last time. Then its my braking. My braking style is: wana brake, dun wana brake, wana brake, dun wana brake, BRAKE!! But still abit scare on Thursday coz I gota drive him back after his lasik. Novena to CCK in the day. Challenging…

Lastly, wana thank miss kuay for her blog entry on the theme I have inspired her. I have a lot to say abt that topic leh! Hahaha I will make sure I will do one dedicated post on that!

Come whatever shit may, fuck whatever shit all

Can’t get to sleep again. Think this has been a problem with me every Sunday night. Maybe coz slept too much during the day bah. So tot maybe I can just come and fulfill my social responsibility.

This week had been quite ok for me. Duno issit coz Judy scare I will leave so she had been exceptionally kind and forgiving to me despite me making mistakes in work. Wonder whats in her mind also. Jasmine told me maybe I read too much liao. Frankly, I am not a person who think too much. It was mgg who ‘inspired’ me to think more. Frankly, I feel there is nothing wrong with whatever she is doing now though funny that she doesn’t wana tell me much. But mgg says smthing fishy is going on, she may have plans to get rid of me. While jas says maybe she just doesn’t wana upset me. Whatever it is, come what may, fuck them all is my moto in life now hahaha.

That thing is still lingering. So sianz, one moment got hope, one moment no hope. I duno whether to pin hope now. Argh… but still I hope things turn out well and I shall go for my aussie trip in nov instead. Cant go in Dec coz got so many weddings going on. Good yr to get married I suppose.

rong-er jia you again!!