he left to continue his studies on 15th Feb 2006 - the day my company promised that will pay me my 2mths worth of salary. of coz, it turned out to be a disappointment. worst of all, i think i was realli stupid to fall prey to someone's trap. making a fool out of myself. think there are juz too much politics ard and i nv wanted to get involved at all. realised that despite all my efforts in working hard for the travel fair, no one seems to appreciate me. im not asking for credits actuali... but cousin told me there are ppl in the ofc who dun like me. and i jolly well noe why. dun compare me wif fern. i m not as pro management as her. i may have more attitude den her. but pls spare some tots for me. im working hard for the travel fair, doing charity for the workload of 2 persons. i believe i had done enuff to justify the amt im getting. i duno how to make betty happy; i duno how to get ard with mag; i have no experience in handling events. but one thing i noe for sure is, i alwiz try very best in doing every thing. i m responsible for things within my jobscope. i noe my attitude suxx lately coz i din get any pay. i did not take away the mac for any selfish reasons. i juz tot maybe i can save it. in the end... i seem to be the joke of the company. realised that the older i get, the more vindictive i get. finali realised that theres no pt staying in this company. it had nv treated me well anyway. i decided i shldnt treat it well oso. but i noe smthing, my evilness alwiz come too late. if its others, bet they have oredi done alot. this is what i like most abt myself. i alwiz wana be good to everyone. i nv wanted to treat anyone bad. thanx cousin for all your encouragement. juz when i seen to lost all the confidence in myself, ur words made me realised i shldnt think so lowly of myself. i have my strengths. one day i will get stronger yet remain happy.
the day bestest fren left, my com seems to noe and throw tantrums. he will be back soon u know... to see a stronger and happier bestest fren!
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